Life is sometimes tricky. In the aftermath of two family deaths, two funerals (one I was unable to attend), my daughter and grandson moving to their own place, and planning on how to assist my mom with details to get her set up for a future move I am feeling frazzled. I have been neglectful in writing posts for this blog. I apologize for that. In the past 3 months, I have written approximately 300 pages of textbook material for an OER mental health textbook. It has been exhilarating and exhausting! That has been the focus of my writing since I last posted anything here.

Brain Fog

Even with my written checklists, I have been in a bit of a brain fog lately, bouncing from one thing to the next. I actually packed THE DAY OF our trip to NH, which is something I never do. Being prepared ahead of time is more my style. I had so much going on that all of a sudden I realized the trip was here and I wasn’t ready.

I took many deep breaths in the days leading up to our trip. The closer it got the more nervous I was about speaking at my dad’s funeral. I very carefully chose the wording and memory I wanted to share. I re-wrote it several times and printed a couple copies to pack.

On the day of the funeral, I did more deep breathing. Getting to the church and listening to others share their memories was okay. Of the list of six people, I was the last to share. I walked to the podium, read the first sentence, and burst into tears. I had such a strong urge to cry that I could barely get a breath of air. But, I managed to get through what I wanted to share and returned to my seat.

The Funeral Aftermath

In the days since the funeral, I have done a lot of emotional processing. It feels really strange losing a parent. It bumps my generation up closer to the top generation. That feels scary. I know that death has no age boundaries yet I am feeling my mortality.

How do you cope with life when a lot of things are happening all at one time? I would love to hear your stories on this subject.

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